PAUS KAYANG

Rule zero, he become The sun. He always in concious that he has to be the one who is in charge for his own fortitude. First thing first, he ballots the planets that he want to be surrounded with. in a various solidity, of course. Some planets are so soft, some planets he built are hard, too sharp but still lovely. A planet of blithesome, a planet of recital, a planet of sadness, a planet full of people he won't ever forget. He create one special planet, when every people he love lives in. No one come and go. A planet when everyone stay. The people were so thrilled and whenever he feel tripped, he always visit this planet. To find an occasion why his cheeks should be liften up one more time. Secondly, he started to make an orbit. He creates a trace, because every planet is important to his solae system. He doesn't want some planet to crash landing on each other he didn't plan. He hate it. Very very much! Third times, his original sun become stronger. He got lucky...

It's been 2 weeks doing like mostly Start 08.30 end in 09.30. Go to bed in 23.00 It was fun, and tiring as well There's some kind of level when im feeling low. Feel so tired. When i think i need an instant moodbooster but then i realize i had nothing but my beautiful bed and a pair of my earphone. This is just suck when i dont know the concept about feeling like i literally not able to feel anymore. Like breathing is as good as choking. I'm so tired. It just. So tired.

"I just build a castle" said she, "Why?" I asked with that look, her favorite one when i started my confussion i guess. She thoughts she might be happy with this kinda look of mine "Because it is fancy" She pointed to where this castle horizon get stripped by the noon sun. "Thank you so much but" ---i couldn't say the rest "It is not what do you want?" She riple her eyebrows, "I want it, it's just---" i waved my hand, bare to the sky. Like there is a presage, "It was too much huh? I know. But i want it to go beyond your expectation. To build something you always wanted. To make you happy with a single gaze at it. I worked for it" For me right? She was confused where did it go wrong? But then all of sudden, all of silence. She got all of the answer once my lips closes. I finished my sentence. She started her acceptance. "No. It isn't home" said i, "Oh. Ok" ...